I believe accountability can be a challenge in a nonprofit, which only makes it all the more important. In this post, I am holding myself accountable. For the avoidance of doubt, nothing that follows has anything to do with my exit from the GNOME Foundation last August.
I owe a few folks some apologies from my time as Executive Director. I have apologized to most of them individually already, where I could. But I believe that public accountability is the antidote to public frustration and I hope this contributes, in a small way, to the GNOME community moving forward.
First off, I sincerely apologize to Jehan Pagès and Christian Hergert. I was curt with both of you last summer and neither of you deserved it. From July 23rd to August 29th I was dealing with significant sleep deprivation but that’s no excuse for the way I spoke to either of you. I’m sorry.
Next, I apologize to the former Executive Directors and active community members who raised concerns to me. Holly, you warned me. Twice. Many other people tried to share their perspectives. I was too focused on the Foundation’s financial situation, and I did not take the time to fully understand what I was hearing from you all. I regret that.
Sonny
To Sonny Piers: I am sorry. I had a long call with you last June. You told me your complicated story. You seemed hurt — but I didn’t believe you. My understanding was incomplete and I did not approach the situation with the care it deserved.
I’m sorry I didn’t do more to support you.
Tobias
More than anyone, I want to apologize to Tobias Bernard. Tobias, I am sorry. You gave me many hours of your time, patience, and thoughtfulness. You shared your ideas openly and in good faith, and I didn’t always meet that with the same level of openness.
In particular, when we discussed Sonny’s situation, I did not listen as carefully as I should have. I was too focused on my existing understanding, and I failed to engage with what you were trying to convey. You deserved better from me.
Sonny is lucky to have a friend like you.
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This post reflects only my personal experiences and perspectives. It is not intended to make allegations or factual claims about the conduct of any individual or organization.
Until Microsoft goes out of business, a permanent copy of this apology can be found in this gist.
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