October 29, 2002
health: A month ago, I was hiking around in the rockies. Three weeks ago, I had trouble walking up Couch Mountain with Owen (about 350 feet). Two weeks ago I couldn’t walk around the block. One week ago I was jogging the dog at 3:00 in the morning. I don’t know how I’m doing today. Most of me still works normally. Parts of me still don’t.
It’s very unsettling to lose partial control of one’s body. I feel a lot of the little fictions I have over my life slipping away. The things that I thought ‘I’ controlled turned out to be such fickle things – heavily modified by the drugs and the disease. Many people deal with a much worse deal every day, so I can’t complain too much. And we all grow old in the end.
Still, I wouldn’t mind my old body back.
bloat: In a fit of annoyance, I added dingus support to gnome-terminal for s/key challenge/response queries. I doubt many people will notice. I will, though, which is the most important thing.
themes: Thinking about metathemes. Have a plan. Need to write lots of code, now.